A Little Bit About Me
love Linux.
memorised baqarah.
like chess.
like reading fantasy novels, now reading first horror, Stephen King IT.
Studied Arabic, but sadly forgot most of it. Want to relearn and continue.
Follow Shafi fiqh
like riding my peddle bike.
Reverted to Islam 20 odd years ago based upon the rational proof of God and the Quran.
the following was written back in 2023 and much has changed since.
Lol 7900 characters to write about myself! Yo Muj what you gonna say?
I'll make some points in an attempt to give a honest & clear picture of me.
My life hasn't been normal to say the least. For sure I'm not your average Muslim. If your measurement is community standing, qualifications, job title or wealth then I'm not for you.
I had a hectic life starting from age 10. At age 15 my mother passed away and I continued living (on my own) in the 3 floor house she left behind. (Lol Not sure what the Devs on here will name 'nonsense' so I won't go into too much detail.) My father had been diagnosed with HIV when I was about 7 so had always expected him to die first. So when seemingly out the blue to me, my mother passed away, it broke me. From 15 to 19 I was quite literally spiralling out of control. Too much freedom and zero guidance lol not even according to a non-Muslims standard. I was being eaten away by the pain and grief from the death of my mother which quickly turned to rage.
Alhamdu lillah Allah guided me to Islam and I became Muslim in Ramadan 2001. I had naturally had many questions about death from as far back as I can remember. What happens when we die, why are we here, will it just be eternal nothingness when we die? No more love, no more pain, no more anything? I had these questions when I was 7 yrs old on account of being told that my father would die. Wallahi it is amazing how Allah plucked me out of the madness I was living in and entered me into Islam. I chose the name Mujahid before I knew what it meant. lol Just recently I thought to myself subhana Allah that name is certainly befitting for me. One who struggles lol. That's me for sure.
I'm 41 yrs old, lol honestly I do look like I'm at least somewhere in my 30's. I got my first qualifications in my life when I was 39, level 2 English & Maths. The English was a walk in the park, maths I had to memorise those time tables and happily forgot them soon after. I'm currently doing an IT apprenticeship and on the side studying Azure as my objective is to become a DevOps engineer. I didn't know anything about IT but found that I have a passion for computers when I stumbled across Linux. Taught myself quite a lot including how to install Arch Linux from the ground up via the terminal.
I was in an unhealthy marriage for 20 or so yrs which adversely affected me. At the end of it I couldn't think good of myself, had severe low self-esteem and confidence. After doing counselling and a lot of self reflection I know that I am now ready to get married and do it right this time. Alhamdu lillah the old me is coming back lol but a bit wiser this time. I am in the process of turning myself into the best form of me that I can lillah. I want to be as fast, strong, clever, motivated as I can be so that I can worship Allah (swt) to my upmost capability.
When I became Muslim alhamdu lillah I was around good brothers who taught me about Islam in an ideological way. So I understood from the beginning that Islam has an economic system, judiciary, social system and penal code. Sadly though, as I had been through multiple traumas from a young age I wasn't ready or able to develop and become the Muslim Allah wants us all to be. Allah hasn't taken my soul back to him (swt) yet so I am, and will be working tirelessly to reach the highest levels of Jannah that I can.
Currently I'm trying to work out the least amount of sleep that I can handle on a regular basis which I think is about 4.5hrs. But soon after Ramadan I'll be starting callisthenics so most likely will need at least 6hrs sleep. Imam Nawawi said his side didn't touch the ground for two years whilst he was a student.
My past isn't good which is why I mentioned the above for all to see. I don't want to waste anyone's time and I don't want my time to be wasted either. When speaking to a sister I am extremely honest and open with one caveat being that I won't expose my sins as it is haram to do so. Anything before Islam, if I feel comfortable about it, is fine.
So really if a sister wants to get to know me for the purpose of marriage then she will have to get to know me as I am now. I say up front, here and now that I won't be having long conversations talking about my past wherein there's backbiting and the exposure of peoples sins.
I have no family except a sister (2yrs older) who I’m not in contact with and my 3 children who I see weekly.
I’ll add that I did study Classical Arabic in Egypt for a few years only to about college level but have forgotten most of what I had learnt. Bi iznillah I will pick that up again once I’ve sorted out my career. I can read the Qur’an without making major tajweed mistakes but my recitation isn’t with an Arabic accent and Imo isn’t that nice. I had previously memorised baqarah and other parts of the Qur’an but that too I need to pick up again time permitting. I’m not currently active in the dawah but if Allah (swt) wills, may He (swt) use me and put me in His (swt) plans. I have given a couple of shahadahs alhamdu lillah. I love tasawwuf but have much to learn. What I do know is that the sahabahs (RA) were the best sufis. I follow Islam according to Hanafi Fiqh and that too I need and desire to study more of.
I’m ready to provide my future wife with emotional support and security. In regards to financial maintenance, that will be needed to be discussed as I said I'm currently doing an IT apprenticeship which is low pay. lol an example of me now being ready to look after a wife is that now, I would like to study the fiqh of marriage with her but I would like to study the wife's rights first.
This is my understanding of what a man is: Being a man means self restraint. Being a man means making hard decisions. Being a man means solving problems. Being a man means not only taking responsibility for your actions but also taking responsibility for the care, protection, security, financial maintenance of others, ie your wife, sisters and family. Being a man means obeying Allah (ﷻ) and abstaining from ALL haram, ALL the time not just during Ramadan or on Fridays when you go to Jummah.
Alhamdu lillahi rabbil a3lameen, ana Mujahid wa ana huna!
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What I Am Looking For
Kind, soft, feminine believing woman.
to be clear, I'm only speaking to sisters who are willing to speak on the phone. it's difficult as it is trying to find compatibility and getting to know someone. Just not making it harder by texting.
I have no problem if you withhold your number.
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